Justin Bieber Opens Up After First "Awkward" TV Appearance: "I'm Not What I Was Pretending to Be"
"I'm a person that genuinely, genuinely cares, and although what's happened in the past has happened, I just want to make the best impression on people and be kind and loving and gentle and soft."
The notoriously scandalous musician has been keeping quiet as of late, "and honestly, I haven’t been on TV in a while so I'm a little nervous," he admitted on Ellen. "I just get nervous around crowds when I’m not singing."
He's looking forward to his own birthday, which he's celebrating with a Comedy Central roast. "I think it’s just cool to be able to laugh at yourself — I've done some things that might not have been the greatest," he said in reference to his various run-ins with the law. "I just want to be able to ... just kind own up to some of the things."
After the appearance, Bieber shared a candid video diary on Facebook, reflecting on his TV appearance.
"I was really nervous, and I think I was nervous because I'm just, I was afraid of what people are thinking about me right now," he said via Facebook Mentions. "It's been a minute since I've been in the public appearance, and I didn't want to come off arrogant or conceited.
"Basically, I've been acting [out] in the past year, year and a half, and I'm not what I was pretending to be. Why I say 'pretending' is often, we pretend to be something we're not as a cover-up of what we're truly feeling inside. There was a lot of feelings going on in there. Just being young and growing up in this business is hard. Growing up in general is hard.
"But yeah, I felt awkward up there, I felt like all those people judging me. And I really wanted people to know how much I care, how much I care about people. And how I'm not that person to say that 'I don't give a f—.' I'm not that kid. I'm a person that genuinely, genuinely cares. And although what's happened in the past has happened, I just want to make the best impression on people and be kind and loving and gentle and soft. And although people can call me a softie, that's how my mom raised me."
Watch the video below.