Chrissy Teigen Discusses Beauty Expectations in the Digital Age

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At Beautycon, the supermodel also spills on being "a clap backer" and feeling happy again after battling postpartum depression.

Speaking at the Beautycon Festival on Sunday, Chrissy Teigen drew the hands-down largest crowd, with fans spilling into standing-room-only spots in the aisles adjacent to hubby John Legend, seated front and center next to his wife's social-media-sensation mom Vilailuck (aka Pepper @pepperthai2).

"I think I was always a clap backer," said Teigen, in reference to her no-holds-barred persona, admitting that she often uses Legend as a filter. "He'll say, 'Do you want to deal with it after?' and that's always the big question. There's an aftermath for everything. You cannot be right ever. The sky is blue; no it's not. So just be happy now. Tweet what you want. Do what you want and you're gonna get backlash. And then maybe the next day we'll go into nuclear war and everybody forgets about it."

This explosive, off-the-cuff reference to imminent nuclear war with North Korea is signature Teigen. Yet the 31-year-old argued that, while she is well aware of world events, everyone needs a break from the "disgusting, evil, inhumane, depressing" news feed of late to maintain their well-being, admitting that she and Legend recently moved the dial from CNN and MSNBC to the 2017 film Fun Mom Dinner starring Toni Collette, "simply to get away from it."

In terms of defining beauty in this digital age, Teigen told the crowd of beauty influencers gathered for the annual conference that all the Photoshop and Facetune app retouching required for a "hit Instagram photo" leave her feeling "insanely inadequate" and fearful of what the future holds for 1-year-old daughter, Luna. "There have been times I've cried to John, where I felt like I would never have that body. Everyone has a butt now and curves and a little waist and that's not me … I'm jealous of those bodies and I want that, but I also feel like I really want to be cool with my body because of people like you guys …That's why I don't post many makeup selfies, because I don't feel anyone knows what a real face looks like anymore and it kills me that we have to completely wash a face or body out for it to get likes."

Getting real with her history as a supermodel, Teigen said she's observed many a stretch mark or scar on fellow mannequins, including Victoria's Secret angels, and wished those imperfections could be more widely shared to help women with body positivity.

She also readily admits to being an eater. A celebrated foodie, Teigen's sequel to the cookbook, Cravings: Recipes For All The Foods You Want To Eat, is in the works with 80 recipes ready to go; she shouted out that any ideas for the next 40 are welcome via Twitter.

"Right now, I'm really into roasted salmon with couscous," said Teigen. "We had a pasta class last night with [actress] Shay Mitchell; we love having people over at the house and learning to cook together, it's so fun … Listen, I love drinking. I love eating bad. But I think there's a fine balance with everything."

Choking back tears, the unplugged star recalled her battle with postpartum depression following Luna's birth and the relief she's found from the anti-depressant Lexapro.

"Would I prefer not to take something?" said Teigen. "Absolutely. But it works for me … I have such a great life. There's no way I could possibly be sad. I have everything I want. But it can happen to anybody. When you're in that hole, you feel like you’ll never be out of that hole. You can't even ever imagine being happy again. And I'm very happy again!"