This Is What Kelly Osbourne Does to Keep Up Her Self-Confidence

Kelly Osbourne Cosmopolitan P 2014
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Kelly Osbourne Cosmopolitan P 2014

The 'Fashion Police' host notes how 'Dancing With the Stars' helped her love her body

Four years after stepping off the ballroom dance floor, Kelly Osbourne remains a loyal ambassador to Dancing With the Stars.

"It's hard to learn how to love yourself, and it's hard to tell somebody that that's just the answer, because it is the answer, but it's the hardest road as a human being — whether you're a woman, man, gay or straight — that you will ever face," she said on Sunday morning at Cosmopolitan's Fun Fearless Life conference, held at New York City's David H. Koch Theater and powered by WME Live.

Osbourne, who appeared at the two-day event in an all-black Lela Rose look and her purple Mohawk — "Tweet my mom that you like my hair so she stops nagging at me!" she told the audience — spoke candidly during a one-on-one chat with Cosmo's editor-in-chief, Joanna Coles.

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"I really did not like myself, at all," the Fashion Police co-host explained. "It's almost five years ago to the day that I had my extremely rude awakening, when I realized I didn't want to die and I was worth something and that you only live once, so you might as well give it go. I was living in L.A. — I got moved back from London because I was misbehaving very badly, and the only relationship I had was with my pizza delivery man and my drug dealer. I remember trying to take more drugs so that I wouldn't wake up the next day. And when I realized what I had done, I just thought to myself — can I swear? — 'What the f— are you doing? I am so lucky to have the life that I have, and I'm just pissing it away because I couldn't figure out a way to like myself.' "

In need of money but still convinced she'd be voted off the first week, Osbourne signed on for the ninth season of Dancing With the Stars, where she eventually placed third with partner Louis van Amstel. Altogether, she dropped 42 pounds while competing and found solace in stability, structure and a newfound self-confidence, despite the broadcasted vulnerability. "I couldn't even look at myself in a mirror. And then I did Dancing With the Stars, where I was forced to look at myself every single day for hours upon hours," she said of her turning point, accelerated when a friend also "made me look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I was beautiful 10 times a day. I couldn't do it at first!"

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How does Osbourne, who also has her own clothing line, Stories, keep up her self-confidence? "Do one nice thing for yourself every day. This world is already so crazy!" she said during the subsequent Love Your Body panel with Jillian Michaels and Cosmo's resident OB/GYN, Dr. Jennifer Ashton. For example, she said, "If you want some cake, don't deny yourself — just don't eat the whole cake!"

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