Donald Glover Reveals Dark Fears, Career Regrets in Disturbing Instagram Posts

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Written on Marriott hotel stationery, the comedy star covers topics like death and infidelity in a series of troubling admissions.

Community star Donald Glover has some fans concerned after posting a long list of dark ruminations to his Instagram feed on Monday.

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Handwritten on Marriott hotel stationery, the seven pages of notes include such fearful admissions as, "I'm afraid my parents won't live long enough to see my kids," "I'm afraid people hate who I really am," "I'm afraid people think I hate my race," "I'm afraid people think I hate women," and, "I'm scared I'll never grow out of bro rape." (The reference to "bro rape" refers to an early sketch by Glover's comedy troupe, Derrick Comedy.)

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Glover, who committed to a shortened season of Community this year -- ostensibly to focus more on his rap music as alter ego Childish Gambino -- also made several references to his career in the posts. In one, he denies that his music pursuits were the reason he left the NBC sitcom.

"I didn't leave Community to rap," Glover, 30, writes. "I don't wanna rap. I wanted to be on my own." He also writes, "I'm afraid [Community creator] Dan Harmon hates me."

"I've been sick this year, I've seen a bunch of people die this year. This is the first time I've felt helpless. But I'm not on that," he adds.

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A rising star in the comedy world, Glover's first big break came with a writing gig on NBC's 30 Rock. He was later cast as Troy Barnes on Community, the breakout role that earned him legions of fans. He recently inked a deal with FX to star, write and executive produce Atlanta, a music-themed series.

Still, his work as Childish Gambino took center stage this year. Glover announced on Oct. 8 that his newly completed studio album, Because the Internet, would receive a late-December release.

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"Obviously, Donald is a comic genius," co-star Joel McHale told THR last August, shortly after the first table read of Community's fifth season. "His level of talent is pretty extraordinary and rare. His rap career is exploding, so I get why he wants to focus on it."

A call to Glover's representatives for comment was not immediately answered.