Ariana Grande posted a four-minute video Thursday evening apologizing for her behavior in a doughnut shop’s security footage, in which she licked multiple unpurchased doughnuts and said, “I hate Americans. I hate America.”
With puffy cheeks from her wisdom-teeth removal, Grande said she wanted to post the apologetic video in response to the “whole doughnut fiasco and craziness because I feel like the apology that I posted, I kind of missed my opportunity to actually sincerely apologize and express how I was feeling because I was too busy preaching about my issues with the food industry, which is not, I feel like, relative. I feel like I could have expressed myself in a different way.”
She continued: “Now is my chance before the whole thing blows over to say “sorry” and that actually I’ve never been prouder to be an American, to be honest with you. Advances that we’ve made in the past couple months and all the wonderful, progressive things that have been going on, I’ve never been prouder of this country, actually.”
Grande explained that seeing herself on video was eye-opening.
“Seeing a video of yourself behaving poorly, that you have no idea was taken, is such a rude awakening,” she said. “It’s like you don’t know what to do. I was so disgusted with myself. I shoved my face in a pillow and wanted to disappear.”
The singer said that she is owning up to what she did and taking responsibility.
“I reacted in a way that wasn’t necessary, to say the least, but also just wasn’t me at all. I apologize for my poor choice of words and for my behavior,” said Grande. “Seeing how ugly it looks when you behave a certain way makes you want to never behave that way again.”
She said that she was “embarrassed” and wants to be “a positive influence” on her fans and all who watch her. Grande said that she felt she let everyone down and that the past 24 hours have not been easy.
“I made a mistake, and I’m being judged for it. I understand because I watched it, and I was just as disappointed in myself,” said Grande. “I’m 22 years old. I’m human. I’ve still got a lot to learn, and I make mistakes, and that’s how I’m going to learn. I’m going to learn from my mistakes and learn by messing up, and that’s how we grow.”
She said that she has to use her mistakes as a platform to learn, grow and get better.
“Not here to make any excuses or justify my behavior because I can’t,” continued Grande. “I’m just here to apologize.”
Watch the full video below.
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— Ariana Grande (@ArianaGrande) July 10, 2015