Monica Lewinsky Says She Would Apologize to Hillary Clinton If They Met Today
"I know I would do this, because I have done it in other difficult situations related to 1998," Lewinsky wrote in an essay for Vanity Fair.
In a new essay for Vanity Fair, where she serves as a contributing editor, Monica Lewinsky opens up about her decision to participate in A&E's upcoming docuseries The Clinton Affair, which premieres on Sunday, and reveals that if she met Hillary Clinton in person today, she'd apologize to her for her affair with former President Bill Clinton.
"If I were to see Hillary Clinton in person today, I know that I would summon up whatever force I needed to again acknowledge to her — sincerely — how very sorry I am," she wrote in her piece, which was published on Tuesday.
Added Lewinsky: "I know I would do this, because I have done it in other difficult situations related to 1998. I have also written letters apologizing to others — including some who also wronged me gravely. I believe that when we are trapped by our inability to evolve, by our inability to empathize humbly and painfully with others, then we remain victims ourselves."
Back in 1999, the former White House intern expressed remorse and apologized to the former first lady and the Clintons' daughter, Chelsea Clinton, during an interview with Barbara Walters.
"I recognize the pain and the suffering they’ve gone through because of this," she said at the time. "I wouldn’t dream of asking Chelsea and Mrs. Clinton to forgive me, but I would ask them to know that I am very sorry for what happened, for what they’ve been through."
During a June interview with NBC News, Bill Clinton was asked if Lewinsky deserves an apology from him, to which he responded, "No I do not." He added, "I did say, publicly, on more than one occasion that I was sorry.... The apology was public."
In her Vanity Fair piece, Lewinsky also explained why she decided to participate in The Clinton Affair. "Filming the documentary forced me to acknowledge to myself past behavior that I still regret and feel ashamed of. There were many, many moments when I questioned not just the decision to participate, but my sanity itself," she wrote.
Lewinsky, who was in her early 20s at the time of her affair with Bill Clinton, went on to say that she hopes to help other young people avoid similar experiences by shedding more light on her story.
"Yes, the process of filming has been exceedingly painful," she continued. "But I hope that by participating, by telling the truth about a time in my life — a time in our history — I can help ensure that what happened to me never happens to another young person in our country again."
The Clinton Affair premieres on A&E on Nov. 18 at 9 p.m.