Nicole Kidman: "I Felt My Way Through the Character" of 'Big Little Lies' | Drama Actress Roundtable

"The desire for him to realize how much I love him, which is to me, an interesting motivation," Kidman says of her character's abusive marriage.

"It was beautifully written initially in the novel [by Liane Moriarty], and then it was written by David [E. Kelley], and then I was allowed to bring some things to it," Nicole Kidman told The Hollywood Reporter during the Drama Actress Roundtable on her role of Celeste in HBO's Big Little Lies.

"Jean-Marc [Vallee] is just the sort of director that just shoots the rehearsal, shoots everything, keeps going, and walks away," Kidman said of her director. "It's a fantastic way to do a performance like this. Particularly for the sex scenes you want a director who just gets in there and allows it to play out. Things happen that are very surprising."

Kidman discussed the her current phase of her life, balancing her A-list career with being a wife and mother. "If I have my fantasy life, there's so many roles, and places and things I want to do. I'm not at a point where I have to go, what's that going to cost me? What's the going to cost the people I love?"

"We don't get the choices as much with our careers and our lives, because a lot of it is we have to be there to take care of things still, or I do." Kidman has one career Oscar win for The Hours and one previous Emmy nomination for Hemingway & Gellhorn in addition to multiple Golden Globes.

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