Tori Spelling Opens Up About Life on Reality TV, Marital Troubles

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"He became Mr. Tori Spelling, and it makes me sad," says the '90210' alum.

From Tori Spelling's strained relationship with her mother, Candy Spelling, to her lavish spending habits and the cheating scandal surrounding her husband Dean McDermott, there’s little the actress, mother and reality TV star hasn’t lived in the public eye. 

"I feel like my life is completely out there and I keep putting myself at the forefront because I have to," says Spelling, who most famously played Donna Martin on the hit TV show Beverly Hills, 90210. "I don’t have that opportunity right now yet to create a show and not have myself in it, because that’s what sells currently."

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Opening up to Girls’ creator and star Lena Dunham in the latest issue of Lenny Letter — the weekly newsletter Dunham produces with pal and producer Jenni Konner — Spelling (daughter of late TV mogul Aaron Spelling) speaks candidly on the issues that have thrust her into the limelight in recent years, including her relationship with husband McDermott, which has been well-documented in numerous reality TV shows including Oxygen show Tori and Dean: Home Sweet Hollywood.

"If he’s gotten such a bad rap with the reality thing, I feel like I tied him into that world, and I feel guilty," says Spelling of McDermott, with whom she has four children. "All of a sudden, he became Mr. Tori Spelling, and it makes me sad because I don’t know what would have happened for him."

Spelling opens up on McDermott’s publicized infidelity and her decision to document their relationship post-cheating scandal in the Lifetime series True Tori. "I obviously ran it by Dean, and if he had been adamant that he didn’t want to do it, I would not have done it," says Spelling. "He was in rehab, and he was just like, 'I fucked up. I’ll do whatever I have to do to maintain our relationship.' It obviously became something that he was like, 'I don’t want to do this anymore,' but at first, he said, 'Yes, that’s fine with me.'"

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Dunham also dives into the topic of the effect of Hollywood on young girls and their body image, landing on Spelling’s much-talked-about boob job. 

"People are obsessed with me getting my breast implants removed because they’re recalled and expired. That’s such a big thing on True Tori. [Stella, age 7, overheard] and said, 'Huh, your boobs aren’t real?' I was like, 'Oh my God.' It was like Santa Claus. I didn’t know what to do," says Spelling, adding, "Her world was just shattered. It hit me hard, and I felt so guilty. I thought, I can’t believe it. Why was I even talking about getting my breast implants removed in True Tori? I shouldn’t have been talking about that."